I'm Tired and I Yelled

Every day during naptime I face the same battle. Eat lunch, lay down and rest (while catching up on my dvr-ed shows) or be productive. 

my girl last weekend while I was doing a family photo shoot....who said she could get so big?!

It's a tough battle, especially days like today when I'm exhausted. Literally too tired to get off the couch to eat lunch, or breakfast, since I haven't sat down to a meal yet today. I've fed my kids 8,000 times but haven't fed myself.

I've dealt with a lot of confrontation lately. Okay, not a lot, just one big one, which is a lot to someone who hates and avoids confrontation. Remember the one time I lost it and yelled at the guy at the flat-iron kiosk in the mall? (I can't remember if I ever blogged about this or not, long story short: I was at the mall with the girls, Ava was tiny, and everytime we passed the flat iron kiosk the guy working there hounded me to let him flat iron my hair, I politely declined a few times then lost it and cried and yelled that of course I didn't have time to let him do my hair I had two small cranky children with me! Know your customers!-my last words to him. It wasn't pretty.) 

baby boy....17 months old.

Anyways. I let lose again. This time at Disneyland on a lady who called one of my children a brat and said "can't you control your kids" (My child was having a meltdown because I wasn't taking her on Star Tours) and didn't realize that this Momma Bear was standing a few feet away and heard what she said. So instead of keeping quiet, as I usually would, I let lose. And it felt good. I defended my daughter, myself and really, this lady shouldn't come to a place like Disneyland if she's so intolerant of crying children. Helllloooo?? Disneyland!

So I let this lady have it and I doubt she will ever speak above a whisper about someone else's child in public again. While I'm proud of myself for standing up for me and my child, I'm horrified altogether. Is Christ cringing at this behavior? Covering His face, and shaking his head? Even though I didn't use any bad language, I did get pretty heated. I don't know the answer. I don't feel like my confrontation was uncalled for, it was necessary (I think), but could I have done it in a more loving manner? I've definetly learned my lesson about judging other people's kids in public. Since having my own I try to be as compassionate as I can when I see another mom dealing with a difficult child situation. An understanding smile or encouraging word really goes so far.

Anyways. I'm tired....we're super busy....homeschooling is going swimmingly....I'm tired (we're busy) and I yelled at someone in public. What have you been up to??